这事让我想起简·里斯常说的一句话，她每次喝醉了，就说:“我有点醉了，好吧，我醉得厉害。”关于变老这件事，她从未说过:“我有点难 受，好吧，我难受得厉害。”但毋庸置疑，若不是因为她太痛恨或太害怕变老才绝口不提，否则她一定会这么说的。 It made me think of a turn of phrase often used by Jean Rhys, usually about being drunk: ' I was a bit drunk, well very.' She never in fact said ' I was a bit sad, well very' about being old, but no doubt she would have done if she had not hated and feared it too much to speak of it. 简是我的反面教材之一，她向我展示了人如何逃避想起变老这一事实。Jean was one of my object lessons, demonstrating how not to think about getting old. 对她来说，未来充满了怨恨和绝望。The prospect filled her with resentment and despair. 有时她会很挑衅地宣称要把自己几近灰白的头发染成鲜红，但从未实施，而没这么做的原因，我想倒不是因为她没有精力去做，而应该归功于她依然还有那么点理性，知道这么一弄她自己看起来一定相当诡异。Sometimes she announced the defiant intention of dyeing her pretty grey hair bright red, but she never did so; les...